What do you see when you look in the mirror?

I see an almost 35 year old woman who with every glance at her reflection, especially if it's been a few hours since the last look, is very much hoping to see something that pleases her or that she thinks might look good to others. I'm lonely and i think that makes the way i look seem paramount. I also feel a lot of pressure from... well....everywhere... to look good. Stay slim, have nice skin, dress well, dress impeccably, have impeccable make up, wear make-up for the sake of it so it looks like you take care of yourself, have impeccably shaped and groomed body, legs, arms, hands, nails, eyebrows... you name it and there's a high standard for it. Sometimes it's fun and sometimes when you feel like you are failing at any of these i feel like crap. Unfortunately my whole mood throughout the day can depend on how i looked last time i looked in the mirror. And i'm fairly balanced! And a strident feminist to boot!!!